Gastric Bypass: Not The Easy Way Out or a Quick Easy Fast Result

My 1 year anniversary is coming up in no less than a month! I cannot believe the progress I have made. I am proud of myself. I have worked hard, set my goals, and took it one step at a time. Emotional rollercoaster and all! I am going to say this, if I don't lose another pound, I'd be happy, if I do get down to my goal weight I am going to extatic!

Weightloss surgery is a tool that you are given to HELP you lose weight, not an easy way to lose weight. I have worked my butt off (literally) to get to where I am at today. I researched the surgery like crazy, I watched on youtube how they did the surgery, I asked friends who have had the surgery both failed and have been sucessful. I joined an online support group, I went to the support group that my surgeon's office holds every month, I stopped going for a while, and I just recently started going back because I felt that I needed the live support from someone who is going through the same things as me.

But this is truly a post not about me and my progress. This is a post about what I have oberved with others who I KNOW have gotten WLS (weightloss surgery) and what I have observed.

I am frustrated with an individual who recently got the surgery. I sit in disbelief as I watch her botch her surgery. She went through the same surgeon as me. Has tried to eat the samethings that I am eating now and I tell her that she shouldn't be eating that and she turns to me and goes, you are eating it! I tell her that I am almost a year out, she is barely two months out. She drinks crystal light and Mio (she used to drink Mio's), I know for a FACT the dr B's office tells you to get rid of artifical sugars and stick strictly to water and unsweetened tea before and after surgery for a while. She INSISTS that Dr B's office told her that it is ok. I also know that you shouldn't be drinking caffine for a while after surgery, but there she sits drinking rockstars (the non carbinated ones). The reason why they tell you not to drink those is because of the artificial sweetener and caffine causes hunger, and you eat more. She eats way more than me still. At two months post op, food made me sick as hell, I didn't eat, I lived off of protien drinks. Just the thought of food made me sick. I haven't seen a weight change in her at all since she has had her surgery. If she has I don't see it. I feel that the only reason she got the surgery was because I got it, to copy me. I did this surgery to save my life, not to become skinny. It makes me sad to see her mess up something that is going to help her. I felt since the beginning of her attempting to get surgery that she wasn't a great candidate, but that wasn't for me to decide.

There is this second girl who had surgery, she doesn't know me. I know who she is. She works for my company. Shortly after I came back from my surgery I was standing in the cafeteria talking to a friend and I told her I wish I could have a soda and carnitas. The girl was in general area and she stated I am not supposed to have these but I am anyways. I knew she had the surgery at that point, I was just standing in disbelief thinking how can she drink that coke and eat those tacos with out dumping and being very very ill? Well almost a year later, she hasn't lost any weight visually, and still has the same eating habits.

I don't understand how people can mess up something that is going to help them. I also don't understand how they can pass the psyc screening if they have the mental tendancies to do this. Those screenings are so indepth and repeated questions. All I have to say is good luck to these two ladies. I hope they get help with these issues once they realize they have them, and they become sucessful with their surgies.

I know this all heartless and I just have to say that I needed to post this because I am frustrated and it needed to be vented somewhere.

Stronger

No one ever told me that I would become a stronger person after all my weightloss. I know confidence would have came in, but I have become a stronger person. I have also become to realize that I am becoming a total different person who doesn't know who they are. I feel like I am being held back and not being able to explore my new self. I have realized that I don't want to be where I am now in my life. I want something more. Just stay tuned. There is more to come. I am doing excellent in my journey I have lost really close to 100 pounds.

HEY HEY HEY GOODBYE

Well, I have been in this land called 300 Land for a while. I am offically out of 300 land and into a land I haven't seen for a while, I spent many many years there and will be there for not long because I am wanting to live in Onederland. Currently I reside in 200 land. Which makes me happy, I haven't seen the 2 as the first number on my scale for a while.

I was released Thursday to eat raw vegatables and beef and pork it made me a little excited. I had salad already and is something that I was really excited to try since surgery. I am still not hungry and would rather just not eat. I know I need to eat.

I am doing this for me, but mostly my future. All I gotta say is this is the best decision that I HAVE ever made in my life. I plan to be healthy for the rest of my life I never want to see the number 3 on the scale as the first number again.

SO goodbye 300land hello 200 land. I am only here temporarily as I am moving to ONEDERLAND!

Beer is good, God is Great, and People are CRAZY!!!!

Hey everyone I have been busy busy busy, but here is a before and after pic of me. I don't right now have alot to write, but just wanted to drop by and say I am in a size 22 yaya!! Before surgery I was a size almost 28. So when I put on those 22's, it was kinda very emotional for me! These were taken a few weeks ago so I will update when I am all dollied up with better pictures. Have a safe and happy holiday coming up. I hope you guys are doing well!

Been BUSY BUSY BUSY

I need to appologize, I hate not posting a blog when I say I am going to. I have been really busy with LIFE. I went back to work on September 12, I am glad that I did. I think work was glad to have me back too. I have lost alot already. I don't know the definate number, but we shall say around 50 pounds if not more. One day I was at home bored and I pulled out a pair of jeans that I haven't been able to wear for almost 4 years, guess what? I didn't think they were going to go over my hips, and OMG they did. I have been wearing them for a couple weeks, I hope soon that they won't fit at all and when I put them on that they will fall to the floor!  I feel excellent, today I had so much energy that I didn't know what to do with myself for the first time since surgery. I must be recovering very well for that to happen!

As for food,  CHICKEN is not my friend. I have tried to eat it with some light mayo, anything that would be good "lubrication" to get it down the hatch. Nothing worked and I was throwing it up right away. Seafood is my best friend as long as it is cooked correctly. I am happy to say that I like seafood so it's not a problem for me to eat it and if it stays down it makes me very excited.

My emotions are worse than a pregnant woman's emotions, one minute I will be the happiest person in the world, the next I want to take someone's head off. It's a rollercoaster. They said in time it is supposed to pass.

It's is crazy how someone can be so different before a huge life change and now I am doing amazing and proud of my decision. I plan to succeed. Even though the dietician says you can eat whatever you want, but this is what we want you to eat, I still like to consider that what they want me to eat is all I can eat and nothing more. I make the rules extremer than usual because I need to tell myself that's the rules. I know I will succeed if I follow the "rules" that way.


I will have a before and after pic posted soon so you can see the HUGE change already. I know you will be excited.

Anorexia With Guidelines!

So it has been almost two weeks since surgery. I haven't had any complications yet. The only thing that I am experiencing is hunger.. I have none... I don't want to eat, don't care to eat. It concerned me a little bit, but then I called my doctor today and he said just to do protein shakes if I am not going to eat and to make sure I get the full 64 oz of water down a day... Which I have been very successful at doing so... But the other night my friend and I were talking and she had stated that this surgery seems like Anorexia, but with guidelines. Because I simply don't want to eat. But I get vitamins and water down. I make sure I have nutrients. But it's in a way not like anorexia at all.... I actually want to eat but don't have the appetitie. Well, my bored eating has officially gone away and I am super bored in my home with nothing to do. I think I have watched all the movies on netflix that I can stand. I try to get out of the house atleast once a day. I think it is helping out. I am tired of water and decaf teas.... But just two months for all this, I am in detox stages right now to get rid of the sugar out of my system... You never know how much you are going to miss something once you cannot have it... I am doing great though, next week I go in for my check up and permission to return to work on the 12th. I am excited.

Not At All What I Expected

IT'S BETTER!!!!!!!!!! I didn't think I would be feeling good after surgery at all, I thought it was going to be a lot of dumping (for those who don't know what dumping syndrome is, it's where you throw up and have diarrhea a lot) and lots and lots of pain! I feel fantastic. I bounced out of recovery like a champ. I got up about an hour after they delivered me to my room to go to the bathroom. I think I got up about 2 or 3 times until I was out of the anesthesia. Then about 5 hours after surgery I got up and walked around the ward where I was admitted into after surgery. I would walk alot and not slowly. All the nurses would tell me that I didn't even look like I had surgery. Ever thing emotionally was fine for the first 3 days. But when I was discharged and went home I went a little over emotional and kinda crazy, it had to do with the pain meds and some even think the anesthesia had a play in it as well. I was mean and not myself to people who I would talk to regularly. Well I am proud to say that I have been off my pain meds since Monday 8/22/2011. I never want to go back on them again. As of Tuesday 8/23/2011 I have been able to eat real food. I am excited about that because broth and sugar free jello are on the bottom of my list for the rest of my life!

The surgeon said that I saved my own life. My liver had been so enlarged that it would have gone into failure at a fairly young age and I would have died if I didn't do this surgery. I am very happy that I made the decision to get this surgery. It's a life change for the better.